Rain On Me

I don't even want to say what has been happening over here tonight. After the blog I posted today, I had it all planned that tomorrow there would be a funny one waiting for everyone. But, I'm in the thick of it and I guess I'm going to go with it, since that is today's reality...

My ten year old daughter gets migraines. She has since she was a baby. We thought she had stomach problems because she would have regular bouts of vomiting, but when she was around 4, she started telling us it was her head hurting. She went through several years when she got them several times a week and our physician and neurologist wanted us to put her on heavy-duty seizure medication to regulate the migraines.

Instead, I began to research more than ever and decided to try completely changing our diet before putting her on the drugs. The side effects were just as terrifying as the headaches. We cut out sugar, red food dye, MSG, just to name a few...and we saw results right away. It didn't get rid of the headaches completely, but she had them around every two weeks instead of two or three times a week. And instead of throwing up 8 or 9 times, she would throw up maybe 2 or 3 times.

We had an excellent summer, migraine-wise, it was the longest stretch she's ever gone. As of today, she had not had a migraine since the day after Thanksgiving and we rejoice in that. She got hit hard tonight, though. It was an 8 or 9 times kind of night and after the days we've had with Indigo lately, I am thinking of all those scriptures, such as...

Matthew 5:45 That you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.

Matthew 11:28 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

And yes, I'm thinking these too...

Habbakuk 1:2 How long, O LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen? Or cry out to you, "Violence!" but you do not save?

Isaiah 48:10 See, I have refined you, though not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction.

When I think the latter in these circumstances, sometimes I just want to wring my hands and say, "I give up." I try to correct myself and say, "No, you can't give up!" But God is waiting for me to give up. Give up and trust. Give up and serve Him no matter what. No matter if I'm cleaning loads of vomit, holding my suffering children, going without sleep for days on end...these are just distractions. Everyone has their "thing" and mine happens to be this. Even Paul had junk he didn't want~ who am I to think my life should be any different?

Maybe there's no lesson that I'm supposed to be learning here. Maybe this is just simply life and sometime it really, really stinks. When it's good though...when heaven smiles on me and all is right with the world, I can lift my eyes to the hills from whence cometh my help and know that He has given me this moment and I am going to enjoy it. Savor it. Feel it. And I can only really do that because I've been through the bad.

This is my angel, Greyley Kate. Please put her on your prayer list.


And if this is your first visit to my blog today, please read this link. Or maybe this one. I promise I'll get back around to funny.